Daddy's Dilema.

It's huge to think about a life without a father. Or without your real father. I think it's greedy and a horrible attitude to not tell the real dad that he's going to have a son (or a daughter). But some man are just not ready. Or it is not the right thing to just break through someone else's life when he wasn't expecting at all that something like this could happen.

I don't think I have the right to deviate his life path just because I got pregnant.

But otherwise it would be horrible to deprive him of the right he has to participate if he wills to, and to fulfill his life with the enjoyment and happiness of watching and witnessing a bit of yourself growing in a little boy or girl, that's even worse.

It was really unexpected.

But for me it has been life itself that just woke me up and got my full attention.

I can't deny what's happening, maybe if I was in my twenties I would have thought differently about it, but now I don't hace the right to just blind myself and say no to this life I have growing on me.

I don't even want to have this thoughts in my mind cause I know that he (or she) is aware of everything that goes through it and I don't want him (her) to feel scared. I just want to keep my mind all clear from any shadow of doubt. Keep my mind in a state of calm and full of light, which is my natural way of being so it's not much of an effort for me.

My pregnancy has been wonderful so far.

I'm just here. Watching you grow. Expecting...